10 questions to ask yourself as you enter 2020.

welcome to my first post! i just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming here to read my intimate, vulnerable thoughts on anything and everything. it means so much to me.

around late 2019, i had saw a post that encouraged people to journal their thoughts on the questions asked. i know it's the middle of january and later than expected to put this out, but some of these questions took me more time than others to reflect. i'd say i'm proud of what i came up with while reflecting on them.

1. what do i love about my life?
i love the changes, growth and confidence i've gained within the last year.
2. who makes me the happiest?
myself.
3. how can i best protect my energy?
i try to avoid being around people with bad vibes and negative energies, but rather be alongside like-minded people.
4. how do i want to feel by the end of 2020?
i wanna feel accomplished with my personal goals and become a stronger individual.
5. what do i need to let go of (fears, toxic relationships/energies, etc.)?
i need to let go of the pain from last year, which i know i've been doing well. i'm impatient and wish it can stop sooner, but i know it's a process.
6. what makes me upset and why?
i get upset when i don't feel equal to others, especially when i feel like they can't give me the same things back that i give them (energy, time, actions, etc.). it's a hard thing to move forward from, but i keep telling myself that i cannot expect me from other people because everyone's different. a big quote that i try to follow is "stop expecting you from other people." it's an ongoing lesson for sure.
7. what's one thing i've been wanting to do but have been too afraid to try and why am i afraid?
i've been afraid to search deeper into my feelings within myself to try and make sense of my habits/attitude/outlook in general. i think i'm afraid because i'm scared of tapping into old memories/traumas that i've been avoiding to keep my day going.
8. what are my top 3 goals for this year and why are they important to me?
a. start focusing hard on paying off my debts so i can be debt free in my 30s.
b. move on my own to be in my own space so i can keep a leveled mind.
c. start reading more so i can expand my mind and my knowledge.
9. what are 5 things i love about myself and why?
a. my strength because even when i'm at my lowest, i somehow find the little light inside to keep going.
b. my story because i have gone through a lot, which makes me the person that i am today.
c. my culture because it's a huge part of my life and my being. my dad has always taught me never to forget who we are and where our ancestry is from because no matter what people say or do, it doesn't matter since they cannot take away your pride.
d. my self-love because i was so insecure growing up. it was really hard as a teenage girl to be raised in a strict asian household where you're given food to eat by your parents, but the second you eat they call you fat. it was really hard to overcome that for years.
e. my self-confidence because of my growth of my self-love. it kinda goes hand in hand with each other, but it took a lot to finally feel i was pretty and that i'm worth it.
10. what message do i wanna share with the world in 2020?
take time for yourself, even if you have to step away from family and friends. know that things will come in time and everyone moves in a different wave length. it's nice to use others as motivation to make yourself better, but everyone has their own schedule in due time. always put yourself first, always.

if you have time, i advise that you look over these questions for yourself and reflect on what you feel. if you'd like to share, i'm all ears!